Week 1 of this year was the worst week I've ever had. Haven't had the time to reflect about it. It really was bad. It was like the accumulation of all my problems piled into the span of 5 days. The weekend was slightly better. Many years' worth of emotions culminated in that week. Family, relationship, friends, church, studies, pretty much everything. It was mainly family that triggered it, the rest was kind of a constant thing. Add in sickness, arguments, calls I didn't want to pick up, and you have my horrible week. I really blew up after years. It was terrible. I'm glad its over.

Maybe it seems like I'm still neglecting my friends, not caring about them, but honestly I just feel like wallowing in my own problems right now. Not that I have many right now. But its not like people even know I exist. I doubt any of my classmates even care about me. Do they bother to ask? Do they bother to talk to me? No. So forget it. Screw them. I'm just in this school to get my diploma after all. Not have a social life. Right? I do have some friends. And I'm thankful for that. Thanks Manda, Sharry, Adel, Tina. Throughout these few months, I now know which friends I can turn to. And God, of course. I need to be reminded of that fact sometimes.

After 5 years of knowing you, I'm apparently still not your friend. And not worth your concern. Screw you. Screw you and your bf.

I don't know why I'm so bitter.