Anthem

This is an anthem for the girl that got away
This is an anthem for the world of yesterday
This is an anthem for the rebel of my youth
This is an anthem for the risk of loving you…

Filo & Peri feat. Eric Lumiere-Anthem.

Kop-ed this from a music blog. Really good writer.

“I told her I took breakups hard too. You share so much, more than with any other person, then they’re gone. Some say you can remain friends, but that’s usually the dumper speaking, not the dumpee. As for breakups being mutual, that’s hogwash, someone always wants it more, that person is the instigator, their partner accedes to the termination, but secretly would have hung in there, maybe forever.

But you can’t have a real relationship unless you give it your all. Makes me wonder if those couples who remain friends are truly able to connect, reveal and be honest. You can go to dinner with a friend, but not with a lover, you can’t stop thinking about lying in bed, touching, hearing them breathe while they sleep. You ask them how their parents are, their siblings, but you don’t want to know too much about their life today, because you’re not a part of it.

I don’t think of old loves every minute of the day. You can only be in pain that deep for a limited time. You end up bouncing back, or committing suicide. But then you hear a song on the radio and you’re jetted back to yesterday, your body aches for the connection…

You look backward and see your past littered with lovers. You wonder, should you have moved on? What would life be like if they’d stayed? How come you never truly get over anyone, how come the older you get the more the attrition takes a toll, preventing you from playing, leaving you in the corner licking your wounds…

You’ll hit more dead ends than open skyways, but you don’t love every person along the way, you’re looking for someone special, with a strange brew of characteristics that are just enough to hold you, hopefully forever.”

I agree with a lot of it. Its true its pretty much impossible to remain friends. And its a question of whether you even want to be friends too. And its difficult to remain friends with someone you once loved/liked. Its true that you don’t want to know too much anymore, it makes you a little sad you’re no longer involved in that person’s life.

And I don’t think about my past much. But some songs will just bring me back to yesterday. And with every piece of my heart that I give away, even to friends, when they’re gone, a piece of you is gone. And I think to myself constantly, "What if I had let him stay in my life?" So many what ifs that you'll never get to answer.

Recently read a post on Izzy’s blog about being guarded. I should be guarded. It makes things a lot easier.

P.S. If you think I'm saying all this break-up and love stuff about you, you're wrong.