"Life goes full circle."-Jason Mraz, Life is Wonderful

This sums up everything, pretty much. Describes all the stupid complicated situations I've been in. And life, generally. We were created by God, and we return to God. Up and down, up and down, we go in life. Onto whatever paths God has set and planned for us. We just go up and down. Happy, sad, angry, happy, sad, angry... That's how we go. As we go on, our character is shaped. Imagine this meter of wisdom/character, as we go up and down, up and down, it goes up. That is pretty much what life is for. A long training session for Heaven. And opportunities for God to save people, as He uses us to reach out to them and for them as they discover. 

The song Chronicles of Life and Death by Good Charlotte sums this up. I've over my GC phase, but this is still one of my favourite songs. I remember talking about life and death with Jing Yan once, reminded me of this song. It's like we came to the world, born and covered in blood and whatnot, and that's almost how we leave the world too. In decay and disgusting stuff. 

"these are the chronicles of life and death

and everything between

these are the stories of lives 

as fictional as they may seem

you come in this world

and you go out just the same

today could be the best day of your life."

Every day, it's like this. It's routine. It's either the best day of your life, worst day, first day, last day, day that you do something special, day that you do something normal, day that you love someone, day that you hate someone... The list goes on. But every day can be in any of these categories. And this is all planned by God. Doesn't God get bored? That thought just occured. Bored of planning all the time, bored of watching us live our lives all the time. Bored of being worshipped non-stop by the heavenly population? I know it sounds awful, I feel scared saying it, but God knows best, of course. He has to. It's nice to know there's a perfect order in the world, that everything is ordained by God. If the world was left to run on its own, I can't imagine how much worse it would be. The world is awful now, but it's actually good. Because everything awful happens for something good to happen in the future. It's explained in the Bible. Perfect sense. I'm seriously not being sarcastic. Every pain and hurt I've suffered in my life so far, I've learnt from it and really gained in knowledge and wisdom. I think. I'm still very stupid and naive and not even close to who God wants me to be, but I'm sure a whole lotta better than who I was in the beginning. 

"You've got some questions, and you want answers

But now you're old, cold, covered in blood

Right back to where you started from."