Messed Up

Wrote this a few days ago on Wednesday I think.

I’ve been sleeping past 12mn since Sunday this week. And I’m not doing work. I just end up thinking. And lying awake. Despite being so tired.

Came home close to 10pm today. My mum fetched me to church after Choir for the meeting for the Youth mission trip in June.

I thought I was okay, getting better, but I’m not. I shouldn’t be leading the class prayer meeting on Friday.

Continuing doing my Bio prac tomorrow. But if I’m not allowed to I’m not sure what to do.

Watched 90210, GG and OTH just now. OTH was just plain sad. Despite it being a “feel-good” episode. Jamie, Lucas and Nathan had a happy day spending time in Keith’s garage. Haley chose teaching over music. Peyton chose having a child over surviving. Brooke chose singlehood over her shot at love.

Its probably the last thing I mentioned that makes me feel the way I do now. Why is this issue bothering me so much of late?

I feel so bad to the point that I don’t want to go to school tomorrow. All I want to do is mope about and feel sorry for myself. And try to fix this.